Swirling Emotions

Have you ever felt like there are so many emotions swirling around in your brain that it feels like it would be an almost superhuman act to sort them out?

Joy. Hope. Tiredness. Memories. Hoplessness. Sad. Beauty. Changes. Overwhelmed. Longing. Good Pride. Best. Enthusiasm. Caring. Lifelong. Love. Behind. Importance. Friendship. Acceptance. Confused. Delight. Closed. Excited. Accomplished. Amusing. Alone.

Have you ever wondered how to prioritize and do what’s most important when there seems to be so much importance clamoring for your attention? Have you ever wanted to curl up and have someone you love give you a long hug while you sit there crying?

Have you ever been so excited you don’t even care how crazy people might think you are? So happy you don’t mind if the whole world watches you cry? So comforted by friends you can’t imagine how you would have gotten though it without them?

I’ve been trying all day long to put last week into words and I’ve finally come to the conclusion: It just isn’t going to happen. There are too many thoughts, emotions, memories and feelings to make sense in my limited grasp of the English language. 
Saturday morning I stood in front of a couple hundred people and cried as I watched two of my very best friends get married. 
From the beginning, no from before the beginning, I have been so very blessed to watch their friendship unfold into a beautiful, never-ending, God-honoring love story. Being close to someone who is getting married is an incredible experience. Being exceptionally close to both of the people getting married creates emotions that I never even knew existed and I’m still not sure how to process all of them. 
So please, excuse my jumbled words and vaguely expressed thoughts. My mind is failing to comprehend life at this moment and that’s ok. 
Here’s what I do know though: 
God has brought two of the most amazing, loving, sweet people together to spend the rest of their lives living side by side and blessing those around them. 
I have been more abundantly blessed than I could have ever dreamed of with the incredible people God has placed in my life. Early Thursday morning some of the most beautifully-loving, sweet and considerate people on this earth arrived at our house and stayed until Monday morning. During those days they spent countless hours working, laughing, encouraging and memory-making with us. I don’t know how I would have survived without them. 
I am so extraordinarily blessed with my family. I seriously can’t think of a family who is closer, more open, loving, encouraging, thoughtful, kind and helpful than the one I was blessed to be born into. I am so very, very thankful for the way my parents have raised us. 
There are things I want so desperately and knowing I can trust God to give me His best is a life-changing way to live life. 
Life is a collage of change. Sometimes change is exciting. Sometimes it hurts. Sometimes it’s scary. Sometimes it’s beautiful. Sometimes it makes me feel lost, alone, and worried. Sometimes it makes me feel the complete opposite. 
And that’s ok, because God is still God. And God is always, and will always, be more powerful than change. 
To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven: 
A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted; 
A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; 
A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; 
A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
 a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; 
A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away; 
A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak; 
A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.
Ecc. 3:1-8

4 thoughts on “Swirling Emotions”

  1. Carissa says:
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    Aw! Love this! No pictures of the wedding…? 😉 That's so neat when you know BOTH the bride & groom. 🙂 (And how funny–I was at a wedding Saturday too!) <3

    ~Carissa~
    delightinjoy.wordpress.com

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  2. Aidyl Ewoh says:
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    Oh nice! I hope the wedding you went to was wonderful. 🙂 And I'm glad you like it… I was afraid it wouldn't make enough sense. And goodness, yes! Knowing both the bride and groom SO well is pretty crazy.

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