K is for Keep Going

{My A to Z Challenge for 2013 has the cool theme of being chronically ill. It’s going to be fun, so stick around! 

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K is for Keep Going
There are literally some days where I’m not sure how I’m going to keep going. I’m not being dramatic here (although during those days I’m sure I’m just one big dramatic mess!), I’m just stating the facts. 
I like to keep a positive attitude, focusing on good/happy/nice things. That doesn’t mean denying the existence of bad/sad things, but I try not to dwell on them all the time. I really try to concentrate on positive influences, like listening to the Bible on audio each day. Some days are really hard though. Some days are so difficult that I lay in my bed feeling helpless and almost worthless and pretty much forgotten. I know it’s not true, even during my hardest times I know it’s not true, but that’s how I feel. 
Right now my dream is to be better in six months. Actually I’m counting down till Sept. 29th. I’ve determined to go strong my medicines/vitamins/cleanses/diet for that long. To do it every day. To keep my head down and plow through my pain, my fatigue, my non-feeling-good times. For six months. If I think about it taking longer than that (in all likelihood it will), then I feel this overwhelming sense of hopeless-ness falling down on me. 
I’m going to keep going though. With the help from God, my family, and the target date of Sept. 29th, I will keep going. And eventually, I will win. 

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