This morning the wind is howling across the barn roof that towers above me into a peek. I sit in my little loft nest, sipping my coffee, reading my Bible, praying, and soaking in yet another day of unexpectedness.
It’s been a journey for me.
I’ve had to deal with attitudes that I didn’t even realize I had. Attitudes that I thought I’d left behind years ago. The last couple of weeks have included crying, throwing internal fits, and working hard to figure out what in the world is going on with me.
The answer is A bunch of stuff. There’s not an easy, cut and dried answer, but thankfully as I’ve pondered and prayed I’ve been able to slowly bring my attitude back to where it should be. Because something that I’ve long been working on learning in my daily life is that my circumstances don’t control my attitude, I do. My attitude is my responsibility no matter if everything’s going well, or my world is falling apart.
I’ve also been reading the book Switch on Your Brain by Dr. Caroline Leaf, and working through her 21-day brain detox where I learn to rewire how I think and react to certain situations. It’s been really eye-opening to sit and ponder what I really think about a situation, compare it with the truth, and then choose the truth as my internal dialog.
On the brighter side, I’ve been having tons of fun working on my short vlogs.
I didn’t plan to post another vlog so soon. But since the idea was waving at me, shouting my name, and begging me to film it, I thought Why Not? and so yesterday was another vloggy day in the life of Lydia.