There are so many different directions the post can take this morning that I’m left staring at the wordless page, trying to decide which angle to follow. Do I talk about writing? I really don’t feel like it this morning. Do I leave a deep and eloquent thought on here? I just tried to get a drink of water and spilled the water all over my shirt because I totally missed my mouth. I don’t think my thoughts are going to turn out very eloquently today. Do I blog about Africa or the snow and minus degree weather we’re having here or write a short story or…?

Ok. I decided. 

Let’s get real. I’m overwhelmed today. I woke up feeling as tired as when I went to sleep and that’s not a cool feeling. Lord willing, I’m leaving in two days for a five week trip and even though I know I’ll be able to buckle down and get everything done before then, it doesn’t feel like it at this moment. 

My to-do list seems to be taunting me How’s that for some fancy anthropomorphizing? and I really want to go on a brisk walk to clear my brain waves and focus my energy. The minus degree weather and lack of time take away from the allure of that scheme, though. 

Today I’m working on abiding and trusting instead of freaking out and being stressed. I’m thankful I didn’t get graded on the first couple hours of the day because I would have totally flunked. I’ve been learning that life isn’t all about having things go perfectly my way. Life isn’t about accomplishing everything I want to. Life isn’t even about being flexible or unstressed. Life isn’t about always handling situations the correct way. 

Life is a process. Life is a gift we’ve been given from God. My purpose in life is to bring glory to God and to love Him with all my heart. That is what I’m here for. 

I forgot that this morning. I’m actually having a hard time remembering that even now as I’m writing this post. It’s so much easier to focus on the things I can see. The list I can cross off, the suitcase I’ll be lugging through the airport, the laundry piled up that needs taken care of. 

All those things are important, yes, but they’re temporary. They’ll be gone one day, forgotten in the conglomeration of life. My attitudes though, they can have a lasting impact. When I snap at my little sister, it not only effects me, but it also effects her and creates a chain reaction that can hurt others, too. When I take the time to love my little cousin and help him out, that can create a chain reaction, too. 

I’m busy, yes. I’m overwhelmed, yes. I really wish I could just go take a nap right now and forget about my list. But none of those things are good reasons to let my attitude turn stinky. God is still God and He’s still in charge. And with God in charge, what reason to I have to freak out? No, no, that’s not a question I actually need you to answer!

What I’m listening to: This and this

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What about you? What do you have going on today? 

3 thoughts on “Abiding

  1. Sarah Howe says:

    Thank you for posting this, Aidyl. There have been times recently that I've had to focus all of my energy on thinking on positive things and just that alone is difficult to do. I know I don't understand, but I'll be praying for you!


  2. Mrs. Abigail Miller says:

    Are you sure you don't want that last question answered?;-) No actually, I am in much the same spot as you just now. While not planning a trip to Africa, I have many other things of importance that seem looming over my head, with an endless to-do list and a thousand interruptions daily, provided by the eleven people I live with, to start, and also furnished by the fact that we live on a church campus right now and have many friends and family in the area. So many crisscrossing lives, so many connected circles, so much to do… But on Sunday I am singing a special in the evening, and I know better now than I did when the Lord first laid it on my heart, just why it had to be this song: One Thing. In all the business of life, our undercurrent, our driving force, our calming focus must be Jesus. He is that One Thing needful in each life and each minute. Like you I am also wishing I could have a better grasp of that when the avalanche of activity hits each morning. Thanks for the reminder, Lydia!


  3. Bekah says:

    Hi Aidyl!

    I'll be praying for you as you prepare for your trip to Africa and the few weeks that you'll be there. This was a very lovely post, thank you for sharing with us! You're totally right about trusting God and having a good attitude about when things don't go our way. Thanks for the encouragement!



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