Redundantly Pensive

I’m having a hard time blogging today. I’m in a pensive mood and it seems like everything I start to write about would be rather redundant. So, being the logical person I am, I decided to go back to my posts from last year and repost one of them. (Not redundant in the least…) 
I posted this in November of last year and it made me smile when I talked about how we’d be moving in a month. That had been the plan. Who knew it would be June before we finally accomplished that task? 
Anyway. This post was good for me to read because it’s talking about change and I’ve had a lot of changes in my life recently. Hopefully y’all will enjoy it, too. 
(Oh yes! And don’t forget to check out Mrs. Mommy Booknerd’s Book Reviews to read my post from today. Also, don’t forget to check out my giveaway at Writing In Wonderland and check out this post for your chance to win a $50 gift card and this post to see the prize for the quote puzzle and comments game. Find Action Kids’ Club here (e-version) and here (paperback).) 
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The rain is seeping into me, making me feel pensive and giving me the urge to reminisce. I have so many wonderful memories of growing up. It seems like this year has really been a great turning point, the end of one era, the beginning of the next. Yesterday I gave about half my room a deep cleaning, going through boxes, drawers and piles of paper. Then I took the first step and boxed up a few things that I knew I wouldn’t be needing in the next month and a half before we move. 
Yes. Move. Not only have several of my good friends and co-workers married and moved out of town (and out of state) this year. Not only did my brother and I sell most of our dairy goat herd. Not only did I finally get a book published and moved on to book-signings and traveling more. Not only did I get over the six-year bout with Lyme disease. But now we’re going to be moving also. 
Our new house is just down the road about a tenth a mile, and we aren’t selling our house that we live in now, still it’s a big change. I won’t be living in a barn any more. I know, it’s a pity right? Who else would mind moving out of the hayloft of an old barn? Really I am excited about moving, but it does pose the question in my mind, asking what the next five or ten years of my life holds. 

Does anyone else here take great comfort in realizing that God sees everything, beginning to end? I do. It really helps me when I think about how He’s holding me, directing me, helping me. I’m excited about what my twenties will be like. What God has in store for me, the different challenges and adventures I’ll go through. Changes can be hard, but pretty cool as well.

This year has been wonderful for me, but very stressful and hard at the same time. One of the verses that I keep reminding myself of is First Samuel 30:6 “And David was greatly distressed; for the people spake of stoning him, because the soul of all the people was grieved, every man for his sons and his daughters: but David encouraged himself in the LORD his God.”

But David encouraged himself in the LORD his God. Just think about it! So often I’ve gone to other places for encouragement, but in reality, every other form of encouragement is frail and fallible and will eventually let me down. Not that I don’t still get encouraged other places, but I need to not put my peace into other peoples/things hands. God will never let me down though, so when life gets confusing and hard I can go to Him for encouragement. I am so thankful for all God has given me, especially His encouragement and peace!

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