When Life Hands You Lymes #35

Welcome to the 35th segment of my fictional story, When Life Hands You Lymes. I just counted it up and there’s only 17 more weeks in 2014. I have a little itty-bitty feeling this story isn’t going to be finished up in 2014. I might begin posting more each week, though. 🙂
As always, thank you for reading and comments are gobbled up with delight. 😉

A knock at the door made me pull the covers back over my head. I was not ready for this. “Come in.” I almost hoped my voice would be muffled enough that Katie wouldn’t hear it. I heard the door open though, and a minute later I felt someone sit on the bed nest to me. 
Oh. Mom? How had she gotten involved. “Yeah?” I didn’t move the blanket off my face. 
“Is something wrong?” 
I pictured what Mom and Katie must be worried about. The last time I randomly cried was when I found out one of my really good friend’s dad had cancer and was dying. Yeah. Way to make me feel like I was overreacting. “No. Nothing is wrong.” 
Mom pulled the covers off my face. Katie was standing behind Mom, a perplexed look on her face. 
“I just asked if you were feeling more energetic.” 
“And I’m not!” Again, I burst into tears. 
“Ohhh.” Mom and Katie said the word in unison, as if they suddenly understood what was going on. 
I sat up and threw the rest of the covers off of me. “What?” 
“You’re feeling bad about not feeling up to par, right?” Mom handed me a tissue. How she had one ready for me, I don’t know. 
“Well, yeah.” I felt like saying Duh!, but resisted. 
“The medicine might take a little while to kick in, there’s no reason to be upset about it.” Katie, no nonsense Katie was actually trying to comfort me? If she were in my place she’d be freaking out.
“Katie, really?” I stood up and put my fisted hands on my hips. “Think about it! I’m tired all the time. Do you realize how un-cool that is? And yet I don’t have the flu or anything so it feels stupid to stay in bed. So here I am, stuck between wanting to accomplish everything I have on my list for this summer and hardly being able to stay awake to get anything done. There’s no reason to be upset about that?” 
“Ok, that came out wrong.” Katie sat down on the bed and I followed her example. “Sorry, Madds. What I was trying to say is we’re not looking at you and judging you. We might not be able to truly understand, but we’re trying to. Is that better?” 
At some point during the last few minutes Mom must have slipped out of the room because I didn’t see her, she must have just been checking to make sure there wasn’t a real reason to be upset. 
“Katie.” I let out a sigh. “I don’t know what to think any more. This isn’t normal for me and it’s kinda freaking me out.” I began pacing the room. “Sometimes I get this feeling that everyone is looking at me weird, thinking I’m making it all up. You know, like someone who’s looking for attention or something like that?” 
“Just because our family isn’t prone to being sick doesn’t mean that we won’t understand it when you’re sick.” 
“Sick.” I made a face at the word. “Do you know how I despise that word? I wish that I was in perfect health again. I know it’s only been a couple of weeks that I’ve been tired, but do you realize how long it feels like?” 
“It’s Friday night. Want to watch a movie with me?” Katie’s perky attitude and change of subject earned a smile from me. 
“Are you feeling bad for me, trying to break me out of this funk or just wanting to hang out?” 
“How about a mixture?” Katie looked as if she were afraid I might fly off the handle at her again. 
“Ok then. A funny movie?” 
“Of course! What else?” Katie’s question made me laugh out right. 
“Maybe one of those documentaries we’re always watching together?” 
“Pish!” Katie waved her hand in front of her face. “There’s this really great looking movie that I’ve been hearing reviews about all over the place. It seems like it’ll be totally amazing.” 
“Where are we going to watch it?” 
“Let’s watch it down in the theater and dine on veggie sticks and cheese and crackers? Mom and Dad are going out tonight and Carter has the weekend off.” 
“What about Darrick?” I was so very thankful for Katie changing the subject and helping me get into a better mood. 
“It’s a girly movie. He’ll have to fend for himself tonight.” 
“Sister date it is then.” Oh, this was going to be fun. 

Once I went to bed, I lay there for a long time, trying to figure out where my outburst had come from. It was very unlike me and it had me worried. I felt weird, almost like Katie was tip-toeing around me, working on not setting me off again. Thankfully she didn’t act like that very long. If she had that would have gotten too annoying to handle. 
“God.” I spoke in a soft voice in the dark stillness of my room. “I don’t know what’s going on with me right now, but it’s not feeling very cool. I’d much rather be back to my normal self with my normal health. I don’t like being tired all the time. I don’t like randomly crying. I don’t like eating pig’s thyroid each morning before breakfast.” I rubbed my forehead. “I want to help Julia with this Bible study she’s planning. I want to work for Emerson Airlines this summer. I want to hang out with my friends. I want to be involved with church. I was hoping to volunteer at AWANA this summer. All those are good things, right? Then why am I having such a hard time doing it? What is going on here?” Sighing, I tried to block the next thought from my mind, but I knew it wouldn’t work, so I just said it, “I know You say Your plans our not our plans and Your way is higher than our way… Really though, maybe You should consider reviewing my plans again. I think they were pretty good.” Then the fact that I was actually offering God a tip and even daring to suggest that I might have a better plan than Him left me feeling like a silly little goose again. “Ok God, I’m sorry about that. I was way out of line. Sorry.” 

8 thoughts on “When Life Hands You Lymes #35

  1. Chris Purdom says:

    Maybe post more often. Love that idea. Can't wait for Fridays now to read (course this Friday came with a bonus, hello amazing author!) then i can have other days i can't wait for 🙂
    This was great. Really felt like being in Maddies head. Just got to be careful not to get so into the story that I don't make a prayer request for her 😉


  2. Aidyl Ewoh says:

    Oh wow! Your comment made me so happy! YES! It was great getting to see you again. 🙂 And as for more often… That isn't in the plan, but I did seriously decide to add a lot more to each segment since y'all wait so patiently… And I'm so very happy you can get into Maddy's head. It really makes me feel accomplished to know that she feels so real to you. 🙂


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