P is for Pain

{My A to Z Challenge for 2013 has the cool theme of being chronically ill. It’s going to be fun, so stick around!}

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P is for Pain

Most days I have headaches/neck-aches, I hardly think about them any more, only when they get exceptionally bad. Most days my stomach hurts; I don’t really think of that any more, either. Most days my legs ache… Again, it’s just a part of life.

(I’m really thinking that ‘aching’ would have worked better for the title of this post, but since it’s the day for P, pain it is!)

Some days though, I have ‘extra’ pain. The times that it hurts in a place I’m not used to: my knees, my back, my arms. And somedays its worse than normal. I have the tendency to freak out during those times. Things that I’m used to are ok, because, well, I’m used to it! I know what to expect.

I’ve come to the conclusion that it’s more of a mind-block than anything else. When I get what I expect, life is good, even when I’m hurting. When I don’t, little ol’ me freaks out! It’s really laughable when I think about it. I can experience the same degree of pain in a way I’m used to, and it doesn’t faze me. A new place or type of pain though? I’m a bawling mess. Really, what am I going to do with myself? 

3 thoughts on “P is for Pain

  1. Anonymous says:

    Keep persevering, Aidyl! I'm really sorry about the pain, and the times when you freak out . I'm sure it's scary!

    Rebecca

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